trust.

Trust is a very, very tricky thing....why is it so hard for me to give in?

I have been let down plenty of times through multiple situations and relationships throughout my short life, so it makes sense when it becomes hard for me to open myself up to another human being.

Even opening up on my own, to myself, can be difficult (if that makes any sense).

But when someone kind comes along, someone that seems interested in who I am as a person, it is so hard for me to think they want to know, to listen and to be involved.

In my last blog I talked about wanting to become happy once again, but I think now I have become better at hiding the sadness or darkness or whatever you want to call it. I feel happier in many, many ways and my eyes are opening up to more of the beauty in this world once again, but I still have my moments....

Moments where I miss my old path, my old goals and my old motivation and inspiration. They have disappeared and finding them again puts a slight damper on my newfound happiness.

Yet I will trek on and figure out this new life I am pursuing. And I will try new things to help me open up to the new (and hopefully better) person I am becoming. The people I am meeting are helping me open my eyes to more of the world and the cultures. My experiences so far have not made me regret my move out here and I plan to keep up my perseverance and feed the adventure side of me as much as I can.

Trust....well that's something I will have to figure out on the way-but one thing I have learned is that there is always a catch and I just have to make sure to keep my feet grounded and stay true to myself.


'There's so much craziness surrounding me,
There's so much going on, it gets hard to breath....
Well, I'm not sure of my priorities,
I've lost sight of where I'm meant to be...
When my head is strong, but my heart is weak
I'm full of arrogance and uncertainty...
I guess there's so much more I have to learn'


~James Morrison  (because the songs I quote are sometimes cheesy  ;) )