exposing myself.

I have faults. And whomever I end up with needs to accept me for who I am. Why waste my time if you will just say it's too hard in the end and will give up.

Here are some faults that I am aware of about myself:
~I am emotionally damaged-for some reason I believe in true love and I love romantic gestures.

~I am controlling at times-sometimes I like control over situations. I need to let go of that, but it's hard when I am so used to life being out of control, so I try to control little things. I usually try to be humble and forget it, but it happens most when I feel that a current situation is out of my control so I turn to something else to control.

~I am stubborn. Very stubborn. It's a family disease-I have been taught that I can be right...and I usually am...but I need someone that can debate me and show me if I am wrong. I can handle being wrong, but usually I get away with thinking I am right because I am not shown otherwise.

~I interrupt conversations-when I am talking to someone, I get excited about the topics at times and it causes me to interrupt people to get my word in. I strongly encourage the persons involved in the conversation to interrupt me as well, like a free for all, but usually people take it wrong and think I am a bad listener, which I try not to be...

~I am a bad listener sometimes-this is separate from the conversation interrupting, because when I am involved in the conversation I listen quite well. But if a subject is not very interesting to me, or if I have other things on my mind I tend to daze out while someone is talking. I love listening to people, and I love being there for them, but sometimes I can't control it. I am getting better by realizing I do this and controlling that part of me, but it happens sometimes.

~I am emotional-even though I am emotionally damaged, I tend to be very emotional at times. If I am passionate about something or feel like I am unheard and uncared for I get emotional. Sometimes it leads to an emotional outburst of tears and breathing problems. This outburst only happens in extreme circumstances and has happened only a few times in my life during times of great stress over a situation.

~I don't give up-and this may be seen as a positive thing, but there is a fault in it. When something is over, I cannot seem to accept it and so I fight for it even more. This leads to making a situation worse. I need to learn how to stop, take a step back and see the big picture.

There are more faults I have I am sure, but the point is that I am trying to lay them all out for anyone and everyone to see. I am not bashing myself. I love myself actually. I love the person I have become over the years and I am still excited to see what I have the possibility to become and be. But I believe it is important to recognize your faults so you can work on them. It is important to help you become a better person. In my opinion that is.

So here are some of my faults. Take them as you will. Pick at them, accept them, do whatever you want with them. But by laying them out I can view them as a whole and eventually figure out a way to make them strengths instead.